For as long as I can remember, deep in the winter months and moving towards spring, I am subjected to the depths of despair. Also known as Seasonal Affective Disorder. SAD is a type of depression that comes and goes with the seasons, typically starting in late fall or early winter and going away during the spring and summer.
This winter has hit me hard. I’ve had those days when it was all I could do to get out of bed, do my chores and wither into a chair, covered by a cozy blanket, in front of the television. I’ve come to accept this, and as hard as it sometimes is, I let go of the guilt and the shame. I allow myself to just be and I dream of the sunny, bright days of spring, summer and early fall.
It was at one of my low points a few winters ago that I heard the call of the ocean. She was like an angel whispering softly in my ear. I closed my eyes and envisioned myself on a white sandy beach, under the warmth of the sun, the waves kissing my feet, a slight breeze gently rustling through palm trees. And then this came . . .
The ocean calls to me.
“Come”, she says, “and I will heal you.
I will cast out the past hurts.
I will calm your aching heart,
and fill it with peace, love and joy.
No more will you sorrow,
for I know that tomorrow
brings you light and hope.
No more will you hunger,
for I know your soul will be fed
with the divine light of truth.
You will live free and long
and you will flourish beyond
your seeming limitations.
Breathe in my essence,
walk my shore,
feel the kiss of my waves at your feet,
and know that you are loved beyond measure.”
“Come”, she says, “and I will heal you.”
~ Teresa Martens ~
Having an understanding partner, family or friends you can talk to, eating right, exercising, taking B vitamins and Vitamin D, and sitting under a light box are some ways of coping with Seasonal Affective Disorder. If you can manage them. If not, take a deep breath, close your eyes, and dream a light-filled fantasy.
Until next time . . .